but just in general, my life is such a beautiful blessing. like i'm sure i've said a thousand times, i look back at my life exactly a year ago from today and i am just awestruck. SO much has changed in nothing but good, amazing, great, and crazy ways!! i mean tomorrow i'm going to become an auntie to what i know is going to be the most beautiful little girl who is so wonderfully blessed to have my best friend trisha as her mother. i'm just so overwhelmed by the blessings and the people in my life. the next few days i really want to focus on the things i'm grateful for. man it's just crazy!
well first off i am so grateful for my beautiful family who has been there to support me and love me despite how far i fell down into a hole. they were there when i wanted so desperately to climb out. i am so grateful for my parents' testimonies of this amazing gospel and the blessing of eternal families and eternal perspectives. there is so much more to life than we'll ever understand in the moment and i'm so grateful for my family to help remind me everyday how blessed i am. i know that i am so SO lucky to have the kind of family dynamic that we have because we are so close and we depend on each other and love each other and i know that no matter what i do or what happens in life they will always be my biggest support system of all. i am so grateful i am sealed to these crazies because i wouldn't have any of it any other way. and i can't forget tyrell, my new brother. thank you so much for being such a great man being there for krystina. you really are an answered prayer for all of us. we love you!! :)
i am so grateful for all my friends in my life right now. trisha you are the best friend i could ever ask for because depsite all of my short comings you are always there with open arms whenever i need it. you have been the biggest inspiration to me in my life thus far and i hope in time when i finally settle down and start a family that i can be just like you. so strong in your testimony and so strong in going after what you want. i love you more than you will ever know, and you are going to be such an amazing mommy! thank you so much for sticking with me this last year and being patient and loving with me while i figured everything out and sorted through the mess i made. here's to many many years of friendship!! and maybe and eternity hehe ;)
to my friends at ken and dale's: man you girls are awesome! you have really helped me feel like i can be me and be weird and crazy and just not care about what anyone thinks or says about it. and i need that because i used to be that way, and i feel like i can be that way again! and i am sure working on it! :)
i know this next one is a little out in left field, but this is to kenz... so far you have been the biggest game changer in my life. and i never understood to what extent until now a year later. and i'm sure there is more i'll learn. i am grateful for the efforts you made to keep me grounded when i just jumped right off that cliff. but more than anything i am just grateful for all the time we spent together and all the memories i have. no matter how jumbled and messy and complicated everything got in the end. it was all worth it to me and it still is. if i would have never met you, i would not be in this place in life where i am now. for the first time things are all starting to fall into place i am finally able to figure out what it is i really want to do and out of life. you are the first person i was actually able to just be myself with, the first person i was utterly and totally comfortable with, the first person who just tell me like it is and call me out on all my b.s. and i am so so grateful for that. and to be completely honest, i miss that. i hope one day we can get back to being good friends again. i know it was only a really short period that we actually got to spend together, but it has made such a HUGE impact on my life in everyway possible. i attribute everything that i am today to knowing you, to everything that happened. it's a beautiful thing when you can forgive someone, and i hope one day i can tell you that everything in the past is now just there. when i look back, i can't even remember half of what all the frustrations were. besides the point tho. thank you for walking (actually more like barging, lol) into my life last september and showing me all the things that you did, and going through all of that with me. and for dealing with all my bipolar rants and crap. whether it was deserved or not, i don't even remember. just know that knowing you was the single-most important event in my life. and i am so grateful for you and for everything that has happened since then.
i am so grateful for this beautiful house that i live in. it was just the thing i needed when i moved home in december because had we lived in that apartment, i don't think i would have made a fraction of the progress i have made over the last year. it has been a crazy amazing year, and it's nice to come home to a place where i feel 'HOME.' to a place where i can so freely feel the spirit. and the view from my living room window is a reminder to me that heavenly father loves us so much. and i know he is mindful of all the things we need and want and pray for. i know if you pray to him, he will always give jus what you need right at the moment you need it the most.
i'm sure over the next few days i'll think of more things to be grateful for, and i hope that this year on thanksgiving i can really appreciate the holiday for what it was really meant to be. there really is so much to be grateful for and i am just so filled with joy in my life.
well folks, i suppose it's time to go finish getting ready for work. :)
remember life is beautiful. :)
